Part 7 : Bullying in the Eye of the Victims : The Savior

Something slipped my mind while I was writting my blog. It was and still is one of the biggest things that helps me get through the day. I am talking about God. He brought me out of a very dark place, even though he did it through a different person, he still did it. He was always there for me even when I didnt believe it. Even when I begged for him to end my pain, even when my dad was taken from me, even when I thought that I couldnt handle any more stress and heartbreak, something made me know deep down that it was going to be ok, and after i started to go back to church i realised that it was god who cared enough for me to tell me that everything will turn out alright. It's hard to survive in the world, becuase its so harsh and cruel. I learned that at a very young age, and the majority of the people who are my age havent even figured it out yet. There were times when i just wanted everything to end. I just wanted it to stop, and I stopped myself from doing anything. I knew that it had to be god stopping me. Today, i have to thank him for stopping me, and helping me, he saved my life. I realize now that if i were to have done something stupid, I would have regretted it. I just wish that my dad would have been there to stop me from doing something, but if he was there, then I wouldnt feel the pain that cuased me to think of doing stupid things, and i wouldnt feel the pain becuase my dad dying was what cuased it.